2009年9月13日星期日

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今天想发泄我心中的不满
但是却发现我的blog每次都是很伤心的东西
但是我知道
写blog是给我一个发泄的管道
快乐的事
我会用心去记
希望我的心中只有快乐的事
不开心的。。
都把他丢在blog里
第二天醒来
又是美好的一天

2009年9月10日星期四

.......

so pain...
i noe my heart is bleeding now..
so hurt..
it is better than i dunno all the truth..
wat r ppl thinking about i really dunno..
wat the.....
i prefer survive alone..
wat the...!!
shit...stupid...
wat a disgusting ppl...
fake...!!
if give me a chance..
i would like to go back my childhood...
i dun wan meet or noe with tis kind of ppl..
actually a person have how many heart
i really dunno...
coz i really tired dy....
it is the time for me to make a decision to change the situation now...haiz...
disappointed!!!

2009年9月7日星期一

如果给我一种能力

如果上天能赐予我一种能力
我希望可以洞悉人心
总觉得人与人相处若要互相猜测的
那岂不是很没意思了吗
若心已有了个结 该用什么来结呢
若一个人肚子饿了
可以用食物来填饱肚子
那如果是心灵呢
该用什么来填满呢
孤独的感觉不好受
就算认识完满街的人
心灵还是觉得空空的
那种感觉很不踏实
到底谁才是真正的朋友
可以跟一起分享喜怒哀乐呢
以前若累了 回家冲个凉 就会感觉很舒服了
现在出来生活了
当感到疲惫时 哪里才会是我的避风港呢
遗憾
现在的我 有满心得遗憾
若我真的一无所有
我觉得也无所谓了
至少
我还有爱我的家人^^

2009年8月27日星期四

raining

it is raining now..
suddenly no mood..haha
coz i am very moody recently...
tmr will go back kuantan...
so happy..
can see my mum n dad dy..
my relative come back from australia..
so my dad asked me go back ...
few days ago my dad called me..
he say he wan cook some delicious dishes for me to eat..
hahahahah..so stupid right..
he say the vegetables tat he cook is more delicious than my mother cooking..
my father is a good husband...i love my father...of course i love my mum also..
after my mum has sicked..
my father try to learn how to cook..
how to use knife...
tis is because my father wan prevent my mum from inhale the smoke tat will danger my mum healthy...
so my father now start to become a temporary chief in my home..hahaha..
i wan go back n try the dishes tat make by my father 1..hehe..
wah...i just recognize tat yesterday is chinese "qi xi qing ren jie"
is a day tat for "nui lang' n 'zhi ni' meet once a year in chinese mythology...
but wataver lar..
coz i more concern about tat tis month is ghost month in chinese traditional..
fuihor..so scare lor..
not dare to come back at night dy..
i wish tis month can faster pass..
hermherm..
my brother will come back on next month..
so i will tell him the truth..about my mum illness..
hehe..got ppl accompany me dy..
no nid go out alone dy..hehe..got ppl go office with me dy..
so happy...

2009年8月14日星期五

new try

hehe..start to write my blog in english..
because i wan to improve my english..
seem like very difficult..haha..coz my english is realy very very very poor ..
y i suddenly have this idea to write my blog in english?
it is due to i notice tat i cant write any essay anymore==
it is quite horror right?hahahah
haiz...in twinkle of an eye...final exam for my 1 sem is coming..
i felt stressful when i notice tat still have 2 more week for me to do my revision..
haiz...my eng still very poor..
my ME no yet study ..
n my Hubungan etnik..haiz...1 chapter i also havent revise it..
wow...so sad..hahaha..
my bro will coming back on next month..
after the final exam ...hehe..so excited now...hehehe..
yesterday was the most happy day tat i felt after come to kl..
hehe..bcoz i finally feel tat some of my classmates quite nice also..
hehe..finally feel tat we really like a class..
DMK group 1..hahaha..
actually those ppl tat i think there are good for nothing person b4 same class with us also quite good lar...coz they always make our class become more relax n harmony ..hehe..
hehe..we always try to help each other....
not like Dmk 2==
stupid guy group...like to make ppl in trouble...huiyor...
dunno how to sympathize ppl 1...huiyor...
so i think my group is the best..hahaha...i love my group..
fortunately i joined a good group in my english presentation..
helped me scored higher mark in my coursework n give me an encouragement to try to improve my english hehe..
thx phaik sann n yih gang..hehe ..thx thx..
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it is going to rain now..==
wohoh..so excited ...haha...
haiz..suddenly so moody..
miss my family member agian..
hehe...hope all the best for my mum n dad..
i love u all..hehe..
of course my sisters n brothers also ...hehe,...
i love u all...
hope the guan yin ma bless us..^^

2009年8月9日星期日

有多好过少

原来是将的道理
多一个永远不会吃亏
真的很不明白
这世上永远都不会有所谓的公平
我刚从教会回来
听了他说的道后
觉得蛮不错
原来要自己快乐
比先让人家快乐
我不知道要怎样形容现在自己的心情
很不舒服
很不舒服
我感觉很不安
现在真的对人一点信心都没了
连仅存的一点都没了
也许当我真的又发现信任的人的真面目后
也许人在我心目中永远都不会有地位
永远都是肤浅的生物
我也许真的会变成个不折不扣的冷血
也许我真的也会变得很虚伪 很冷血

阴天

我的心情就像今天的天气
阴阴的。。静静地
回到来 开门看到的又是空无一人
我真的有点显了
我觉得累了
对人 对事
这个世界 这个地方
也许真的没有我站立的地方
没有一个真正的避难所
我好像回家
放弃现在的所拥有的
放弃我的梦想 前途
回到自己最原始的家